Friday, September 10
hi, finally came home today after being at my mother's place since tuesday.
hols have been good, went out with my mum, she spent nearly 200 on me in 1 day buying bags, and clothes. Bought this new wax, its called the architect wax by loreal, quite nice leh, nice smell too. anyways my mummy is my mobile bank lolz.....
today, my friend pei ru came over to do her compo lar, turns out my dad not in, so me have to meet her outside, and edit the compo till we could get to my house and type it in. quite sian.... she's a great friend if you like listening to ppl.
she likes to talk and i like to listen to her, tell you a secret lar..... i love her very very much. she knows this i think and i know she'll nvr accept my heart so i'm just trying to be the best fren i can, helping her in alot of things lar. it hurts me alot when she says certain things about me, but i only feel these later.....
i'm more than happy to b around her or talk to her, but she treats me a little erm.... badly... but i'll endure anything for her, and i'd trust her with my life.
i want to get over her, seeing that she loves sumone else, but something is hindering my chances of forgetting her. Try my best lar
Well, going back to my mum's house tomorrow to pick up the rest of my stuff, b4 spending the weekend with my REAL family, one thing gd about my step family is the relatives, this family is veery close knit, al the grannies are very nice ppl, caring too. they dote on me like hell..... using mi as examples to show their own kids lol. anyways, gonna go check on my brother good morning to y'all and God bless
LATER DUDES!!! CHEERS!!!
Tuesday, September 7
hey all again, just got back from East Coast, we went there for dinner. Anyways, today was ok, slowly getting my act together. Luck is pickin up, people actually wanna hear what i want to say, rather than just blow me off with the familiar sounding phrase "Whatever". Which is kinda cool, or it could be because they know i'm having problems and wanna be sort of sympathetic.....that would be lame lar, but i am oblivious to the fact. HAHA attention seeker that i am.
Anyways, yesterday was me lil god bro's bday..... Rohan, here's to you being a 15 year old now.... dun worry, SIR has yr ic lol. also, me bestest friend ever, Haida turned 15 yesterday also.. Cheers to you girl, love you. But if both of you want presents, yr better off asking Santa for his beard....my pay hasnt come in yet, look for me after the 12th...
Anyways, my Wednesday if now free thanx to Pei Ru cancelling our movie date.....
crapz, now have to reschedule, but i'll b seeing her the nxt day, have to do her homework for her... have to help my cutie pie with her English Compo lol, she'll skin me alive if she heard me calling her that. Well its midnight now, feeling kinda woozy.... gonna go sleep...God Bless LATER DUDES!!!!
Monday, September 6
hi all, sorry i havent blogged for a very long time, i've been having some serious emotional and relationship stress lately, it got near breaking point round where i last blogged and instead of facing it, i ran away from it all. Sometime last week, I picked my balls up and did my level best to settle all my problems, and i can safely say, my mind is at peace....
I have no reason to discuss my problems with anyone other than the ones involved, so dont bother asking, but to those who stood by me when i was on the verge of suicide, namely Draobetaks, David, Pei Ru and Joel, Cheers to you all for it is because of you wonderful ppl that i am still blogging. My guitar is wonderful therapy, food for the soul and mind, great stress reliever. I have abandoned Rock and Metal music until further notice, I have adopted Blues into my arsenal of genres. It suits me well as i kinda like slowhand playing.
Anyways, I have decided to stop dating till I enter Poly, its too big a heartache if a relationship fails. I wouldn't know what to do in that case, except kill myself...... By the way, i have a knife with my name on it now. just kidding "sadistic humour" well heres a little truth i wanna tell sum ppl. the girl i love so dearly and yet so far out of reach has told me and i quote, "You are here to inject laughter and humour into my life, that is the limit. " OUCH!!!
if you wanna know how much that hurts me, try jumping off the Ritz carlton and falling on a puddle of thumbtacks...... What does she think I am? a damn comedian? I LOVE HER DAMNIT!!! some ppl have really enormous egoes.....
or maybe its just my ego...... either way, i'm still a little comedian in her view
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Anyways, Have a good holiday week, stay healthy and smile always. Farewell and God Bless LATER DUDES!!!!!